Thursday, January 14, 2010

The rambling of my mind

The past few days it has felt nearly impossible to think a complete thought, let alone a creative one. Like my brain went on sabbatical and didn't inform me. I have been on a quest of sorts to find out who I am and what I desire to be and achieve. Maybe the thoughts have stopped coming because I have overused my brain. Every moment of my day is filled with the most precious tiny person I know. Seeing her smile brings joy so deeply to my soul I find it hard to focus on much else. Watching her discover and explore life for the first time is so inspiring, I love to see her reaction to the world.
In a more focused line of thought, I have been reading through the book of Matthew recently and today I read Chapter 11. This is the part that struck me, "28Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." I have read these verses many times before, but I realized something new this time around. He says to take His yoke upon you and you will find rest for your soul. I think most often we take from these verses is that if you follow Jesus He will take your burdens and give you a peace in your soul. But what I realized is that in Verse 29 it says " Take up my yoke". We still have to work. We are still plowing. It may be "easier" and we wont have to worry about our eternity, but we still have to work. We now are partnering with Jesus to carry some of His load. He will give our souls rest because they now belong to him, but the hard stuff isn't over.
This shook me from the depths of my being. I always felt like that verse implies Jesus just coming behind and fixing everything and making my life gumdrops and roses. Now that I realize what He is really saying it hits much deeper. I feel a sense of urgency and desire to carry that yoke with Him. To take part in the work that is before Him. I love finding out new things about the God that I am so deeply in love with. He is always making things new and relevant.
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