Thursday, June 24, 2010

On my Journey

  My life up to this point hasn't left much room for self discovery. I opted out of the "College Experience" - It just wasn't for me. I got married at 19 to the most incredible guy I know. I had my daughter when I was 21 and now I am living in the town i grew up in running a Young Adults group with my Husband. Through it all I have changed a lot. My favorite band has changed, my favorite color has changed, and I've even changed my hair a few times. However, I still don't feel like I know who I really am, or what I really want to do with my life.
  Now don't get me wrong, I have purpose. I know I am supposed to be a great mom to Ava and a great wife to Daniel. But what I am talking about is not knowing the things that I desire to do, that make me feel fulfilled and alive. Like I am accomplishing something for myself. And in order to know those things, I think I should know myself.
  Recently Daniel and I went and got tattoos for our anniversary, and I feel like that has given me the self-exploration push that I need. He got a verse from Song of Solomon written out on the under side of his bicep and I got a picture of an apple tree. It comes from the verse in Song of Solomon 2:3 "As an apple tree among the trees of the forest so is my beloved among young men. With great delight I sat in his shadow and his fruit was sweet to my taste." I have always wanted a tattoo and felt like it would help me express myself better. And it has. I feel like I am becoming more of the person I want to be. Now I just need to figure out the rest of it, but I have some ideas. 
  I love:
  - Writing
  - Painting
  - Singing
  - Photography

And other stuff, but I kind of feel silly listing it all. So here I go. I am on my journey of self discovery. Wish me luck, and I'll let you know how it's going.

Grace and Peace

1 comment:

Daniel said...

Now THAT is inspiring. I'm excited for your journey, and pray that God sheds light on your dreams and desires. I love your passion.

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